kpaksa

taaaukah kau dirikuuuu kan tetap hidup waaalau kau jauh darikuuuu

so.. pegilah kmanapun kau suka, dengan sapapun yang kau mau... for i don't have the power 2 follow u..

but..

i'll be right here when you need me.

gi sakit nii

wah.. dari kmaren gw sakit nii.. kecapean kynya.. akhirnya stlah minggu yang sangat aktif, my body meets its limit, huehehe.. yah, kepaksa ga pergi2 dulu deh.

yah, sperti biasa, kalo ga ada kerjaan di rumah, otka gw mule ngga bisa diem, mule mikir yang aneh2. Wah, gawat.. bisa gila nih kalo diterusin. . Saat itulah.. gw inget.. "dia". Aaahhh, kalo pikiran gw lagi kalut gini pasti enak ngobrol ma dy. Duh, jd pengen nge-sms, pengen nelf dy. Eit, tp ga boleh! Ntar gw makin tertarik ma dy.. bahaya2. huehehe. ahhh.. tapi smakin gawat nih pikiran2 gw, ga kekontrol. Berhubung hp udh terlajur di tangan.. (struggling so hard not letting myself call her!), gw ngebrowse phonebook gw. Terus tertangkaplah suatu nama, dengan caller ID#1, quick dial #1, dan satu2nya entry yang punya nada panggil sendiri... Sandra. Huehehe, you might be wondering, who is this girl, who's so special to me? well.. she is my last highschool crush, nuff said! teehee.

So, instead of calling "her", gw nge sms si sandra: " yo San! pa kbr? gi kul nih?" Pendek amet y? hehe. not very long.. balesannya dtg.. kira2 bgini: "gw baek... baru aja beres kul.... gw ga ad pulsa niy.. he3. Lu gmana? lagi kuliah y?" hehe.. emang cman gitu doang si, dy jg ngomong ga ad pulsa, ngbales pake nomer tmennya hehe... but at that instant.. my sanity comeback. All my nerves relaxed. The image of "her" disappeared from my head. ahh.. she still had her magic. Pdhal cman sms gtu doang y? hehe, ga tau knapa. plong. So, gw bls smsnya, bilang gpp ga ada pulsa, bilang gw lg sakit (cengengnyaa gw =p), n bilang, take care! Huehehe. eeh.. dy ngebales lg. dan sms yang ke dua ini completely blown me off the atmosphere.. back in the mood baby!! (padahal isi smsnya juga biasa aja ko, sumpah!) yeaah. and that's alone made my whole day... Huehehe

Jumat pagi

Hehe, pagi ini ga ada kerjaan.. kuliah kosong (huraaaa!). Tapi uda telanjur bangun jam 3 nih. Setelah menyantap 3 buah pisang dan 2 butir telor rebus (lapaar), satu set push-up and crouch, bingung d mo ngapain.. so.. nyalain komputer, masukin smua mp3 yg ada ke komputer ke winamp (mm.. 3408 lagu tepatnya), trus di shuffle deh.. Hasilnya:

voice of korea japan - Let's get together now .. 1st track, pilihan sendiri
Keno - Ohayou ..met pagi semuaaaa
weezer - the dawn .. 2 mnit doank! tp tetep keren
top loader - dancing in the moonlight .. yeaah!
sherina - pelangiku ..adu adu.. so sweet
the strokes - under ..alah2, ga smangat, klo suasananya cocok sih oke
Blur - stereotypes ..ko mirip lagunya peterpan yah :p
Eminem - without me ..coz it's feel so empty without me hehehe
Manic Street Preachers - Australia .. yah lumayan lah, kesukaan si ebhe
MLTR - Out of Blue .. yaaah.. ngrusak suasana smangat nih
Kula Shaker - Govinda .. perfecto! ^_^

.. aah. Mantap2, stelah bergovinda jaya2 ria, kynya udah waktunya brenti nih. Udah jam 5 lewat. Orang2 uda pada bangun, n gw blom solat subuh, hehe. Soo.. sampai di sini dulu, jumpa lagi dengan saya di lain kesempatan, hehehe.

Chao!

An Unsespected Call

Yow, what’s up everybody?

Hmm… after full day pass without a single call or sms (damn! Where’s everybody?), my home phone rang, my sis said, it was for me. “Yeah! At last!!” I said, but trough home phone? Hmm that’s unusual. So, I picked up the phone. “Taufiq?” a girl voice on the other end. “Yeah…” I said (where was I heard this voice?). “This is Mbak Ari” (ahh, so it was her). “Err… Aji had a motorcycle accident yesterday, now he is on the I.C.U. Can you come over to support him?” hmm Okay, this is obviously not the call I was expecting. After having a shower, dinner, said the magrib prayer, and a couple of unsuccessful contact to Brama, I rushed to Dustira hospital, where Aji was treated. FYI, me, Aji and Brama were a threeboys gang back when we were in elementary school, a bike gang to be exact =). Now we’re still in contacts, tough seldom meet each other. In hospital, I meet Mbak Ari, which is his sister. She said that the accident occurred in Sunday morning, he was driven by his friend, using his bike. His appearance seemed okay, only he said his stomach was aching. After a CT scan, the doctor said an operation was needed; they had to take one of his kidney. I heard all this from Mbak Ari, since Aji was conscious only for a minute (literally), just to say “Ah… Taufiq, where’s Brama? Damn.. I had a bad luck”, then he fell a sleep. Argh, it seemed pretty ugly, his condition I mean, with all the wires and pipes connected to his body. Hope he gets well soon.

I just wanna say, I know it’s fun driving on the road, speeding is even more fun. But remember, ending up in the I.C.U is no fun at all.

God, I’m feeling useless

Tuhan, tiba-tiba hal ini terlintas di benakku..

Pernah, suatu saat, aku mengejar seorang wanita

Di mana ada seorang yang juga turut mencintanya

Ku pikir, dia jelek, gendut,dan culun

Dia hanya sedikit berlebih harta

Tentu persaingan ini aku yang memenangkannya

Sejujurnya itu yang ada di benakku

Tapi kemudian, Kau timbakan musibah pada sang wanita

Si gendut selalu ada di sampingnya, memapah langkah-langkahnya, mendengar keluh kesahnya

Aku? Menemuinya pun aku tak bisa

Perlahan aku mundur teratur,

Ku sadar, inikah maksudMu? Diakah yang lebih pantas?

Ya, karena aku tak berbuat apa-apa

Ku tak mampu berbuat apa-apa

Lalu lagi,

Pernah, kuhinakan seorang hambaMu

Huh! Dia egois, tak tau etika dan hanya mau menang sendiri

Tapi ternyata, dia membuat bundanya bangga

Dia dapat memuliakan ibunya

Aku? Meninggikan bundaku aku tak bisa

Ya, karena aku tak berbuat apa-apa

Ku tak mampu berbuat apa-apa

Tuhan.. sebegitu hinakah diriku?

Aku… sungguh ingin berbuat sesuatu